Bonding with mummy

Since now is the school holidays, I only need to clock in 4 hours of school. So, I would usually go school at 640am (the earliest 'bird' there aside from the cleaners) to beat the peak hour traffic and to have some peace and quiet in the office before the students and teachers come in.

What I would do is- I would first make myself a hot drink to eat with my sandwich which Vicky prepares early in the morning. Then, I would check my emails-personal and office mails, rush deadlines e.g CCA Stock Checking, Semester Review etc etc and also prepare for my lesson at 915am-1030am. The Sec 3 students who did not do well for their final year exams were made to come back for extra Mathematics lesson. So before lesson, I would do all the necessary preparations.



Some days, I have meeting in the afternoons from 2 plus onwards. So that will be a long day for me. But usually right after my teaching, I would have clocked in my 4 hours already. So, I would rush back home to feed Caleb and play with him. I have to say I do look forward to see him and spend time with him, but part of my system would have probably shut down by then due to sleepless nights, interrupted sleep, and pressure from work. So, it may seemed wonderful to look forward to spending time with Caleb, but on the other hand, there are times when I wish I could just take a break and snooze in my bed. I guess my effort is paid off when I see Caleb smile as I play with him, but the worse part is when he starts crying and here I am, so drained and yet, I have to stand up and carry him to pacify him to sleep or drink his milk.

Below is a picture where I took him out alone for walks to other parks nearby..



I have to first state that I have no complains...but just to make others realise that having a kid is not something that you should treat lightly. I know there are females out there who are single and thinking of getting married, but without considering the huge responsibility that comes with it. I had one student from my previous school who is already a mother at the age of 16 years old. I taught her when she was 13 years old...and when I found out she has a son, I was completely shocked and saddened as her whole life is going to be affected. There have been so many stories about newborn babies being abandoned in rubbish chutes and its really heart wrenching to read of such incidents.



So now, I feel I have the responsibility to tell people that it is not easy being a parent. Its very draining in all aspects. Eversince Caleb was borned, I have not really been doing much things for myself anymore. Things that I wish I can do or want to do cannot be carried out if Caleb needs me. But of course most parents would agree that despite how tough it is, at the end of the tunnel, there is always a light and yes, I cling onto that hope- that one day Caleb will smile more, one day Caleb will appreciate the things I have done for him, one day Caleb will turn out to be the man of God that CT and I would want him to be...