Dad rushing things..

Today when we visited him, he was trying to rush things by trying to write. He requested for pen and paper. However, he cannot even hold the pen as his hands is very swollen and weak. I was happy that dad wants to try but it pains all of us to see him not being able to do it and we are afraid he would be disappointed. He also requested us to take him out for a walk. We felt so helpless. I think Dad cannot wait for his life to get back to normal, but he may not realise that it may not go back to normal.

We received a letter today by an old neighbour from Tiong Bahru who sent the letter to the hospital giving words of encouragement. It felt heart warming to know that they are also praying for us and encouraged us by asking us to trust in the Lord.

We spent about one and a half hour visiting him and had to go back as CT's colleague was waiting for us outside. He is on shift, so no work today. That is why he can come send us here.

When we went home, I was preparing lunch with mum. We had potatoes with minced meat, chicken with ginger & oyster sauce, and a spinach ikan billis soup. The chicken dish reminded me of my dad as he cooked that just the night before the accident. He was in charge of preparing dinner for us. It was the same dish. There are just so many happy moments spent with him just hours or days before the accident and now, everything has changed in a sense.

On one hand, I feel sad that it has happened, but on the other hand, I feel stronger and humbled that God has selected my family for this. It is like a King selecting his soldiers for a great mission. Very honoured. I always think about how much Jesus has suffered even more and how God had to see His own son die on the cross just to save us. That is even more painful. I just pray my dad understands this and will continue to be joyful and strong in the Lord. I know he will as he has great determination.

At night, when CT came back, we went for dinner at Cici's Pizza-pizza buffet place. It was the place my family were going to after our golf game but never made it to because of the accident. Went here as my bro will def love it and he was telling me how hungry he is. The place served diff kinds of pizza. They even have ham,cheese, egg pizza. All freshly cooked and piping hot. So, it tastes really yummy with the hot melted cheese. You can even request what kind of pizza you want and they will cook it for you fresh! All for the price of only US$5! (including free flow of drinks) I think we had about 10 slices of pizza each. There is also a salad bar and pasta with hot creamy sauce or tomato sauce.

After a very full dinner, we made our way to visit dad at 8pm. He was again trying to write but cannot. He seems a little frustrated. We kept asking him to take things one step at a time and not rush. The doctor told us that he will be having his plastic surgery tomorrow (Tues 4pm-that is Wed 5am singapore time). She told us that dad's jaw is broken into 3 different sections-in very bad shape, and his bones around his eye area also broken. So, pls pray for his surgery tomorrow.

From tonight, my dad looks rather weak and tired. He was put on a chair this afternoon for 3 hours and his heart rate we saw tonight was very low (only 40 plus). Think it is because he is tired and weak. Before we left, he wanted us to straighten his leg, which was already straighten. Somehow, in his mind, his leg is not straighten. We had to lift up his leg to show him that it is straighten. He has absolutely no feeling and he looks sad. Pray that he will be emotionally encouraged and not disappointed.